but not in a bad way.
i was so certain of myself and everything is changing now and maybe i'll leave here, maybe friends will change, maybe i'll relocate a few times,
but i can change things for myself and make things work they way i want them to.
lately i've felt like a shitty person but
last night it wasn't too cold and my mouth was sticky sweet with vodka and juice and
the stars were finally visible
and i could feel something big starting.