all is love

sometimes i get angry that i can be a hateful person

and people and things can set me off

then i kind of get this happy feeling just from life

it doesn't make sense but

even if i'm in a fucking college wasteland

i have little things

like metro rides and wandering around dc

and planning and hipster dancing

and who i used to be

merging with who i am

i'm happy with myself

and i know nowhere else would be better

and i can see things and say things

but i'm the only one in control of it

this won't make sense but it does to me

i like having myself there and

creating what i want around me

your best friend sticking up for you even when you know you're wrong

we might have left home and started college and new lives...but we'll always be a couple of freaks destroying facebook about kyle xy.

today, on the metro ride home, drops of jupiter was the first song that came on shuffle and i started tearing up because I can be away from home and still get the warm feeling of having people so important and meaningful in your life that you feel lucky to be alive.

this is a really fucking lame post but i get to see the first person since i've been at school that knows me inside and out on friday. i may have seen the boyfriend and the parents so far but this is someone who has always been there since the time I was crying everyday about how nervous I was for my bat mitzvah....it's a little different.

i really just want to roll around and scream because i everyday i feel more comfortable here and everyday i get more in touch with the dreamer, writer, thinker i was before i left home.

i'm just really fucking happy.

allow me to re-introduce myself

a. lagy gaga was everything i could've imagined and more...more later.

b. why is jay-z SO FUCKING GOOD. besides the blue print 3, i just downloaded the black album and am obsessed. why was i so late on this?

c. i have more homework than i'd like to admit tonight..fack.

i knew i was content when i was actually distressed about leaving my friends for one weekend. this is my home now.

it just feels good when you're next to me

7 months.

really awesome radio show

so, this may not be a big deal to the rest of the world but, I GOT MY OWN RADIO SHOW AT SCHOOL.

this all began on thursday when i trekked it over to south campus with my friend vicki to check out the WMUC open house. upon arriving to the small studio, I felt slightly intimidated but upon meeting a few people i realized that everyone there was friendly (with excellent music taste). I had to apply and interview first, but the interview consisted of questions about my favorite member of wu-tang and least favorite band. I fell in love with the studio and had been anxiously waiting to hear back to see if i got a show. today i found out that from 6-8 am on tuesday mornings i'll be working on the FM station (also streamed online!), which is really crazy since I'll be on an actually FM station in maryland. It's amazing that I have my own show but more importantly, these are the people i'd been looking for at maryland- crazy, obsessed with music, and interesting. i essentially did nothing else today but hang out with my friends on my floor and get food. but i couldn't be happier.

was i too idealistic?